New year, new ... ?

New haircut?

Boyfriend?

Car?

Job?

House?

Friends?

Laptop?

Handphone?

Scandal?

Possibilities are endless.

Tapi aku rasa paling best, new attitude. Attitude towards apa lak ye? Hmm…

Pernah kan rasa kosong dalam hati, like korang suka tengok muka someone berlainan jantina tapi dalam hati sikit pun tak rasa apa, like tengah dalam serius relationship tapi dalam hati tak rasa apa, like tengah in serius trouble tapi korang tak rasa takut pun, like memang dah lambat giler untuk meeting penting tapi dalam hati boleh calm giler tah datang dari mana. Like tak rasa apa sampai ke tahap korang tak kisah bila orang2 sakitkan hati korang over and over again, sebab tak rasa apa kan?

Rasa kosong sebab ada ‘someone’ yang korang suka be around je, look forward untuk jumpa tapi tak expect apa2 lebih2 pun sampai dah ready siap sedia sebab tahu akan tiba satu hari nanti, pada bila2 masa when we least expecting  that ‘someone’ suddenly disappear, just like that, just like the others before... And when they come back or suddenly reappear, benda tu makan diorang balik sebab tengok korang dah move on, live korang gempak giler, korang tak suffer eating disorder, korang bertambah cun/hensem, bertambah kaya, korang much2 more fun they wish they never left or at least they could keep up with you. But then all you can say, it’s okay I tak kisah pun, with biggest beam on your lips. Eat that.

Mungkin ok kot tak rasa apa, it makes you cool kot?

KOT.