The heartthrobs

How soo carefree your life is. You sleep, eat, play, have sex, sleep, eat, play, have sex, and repeat that all over again.

In your world there are no problems, no job-hunting, no money, no commitments, it’s okay for you to just laying around and be handsome and clumsy. And there’s always gonna be food for you.

In your world there’s no social classes, no degrees, no best school, no what’s-your-family-background –like, no salary range, no hottest and expensive clothes, no designer shoes, no luxurious cars, no latest tv trend.

No backstabbing, no heartbreaks, no betrayal, no lies, no confessions, no denial. 

But in my world… =(

But you totally understand that.

Thanks for always being there, for the shoulders for me to cry on (literally), for you to always listen and just be silent to my grumbles, for the companion, for laying down closely beside me when I’m watching tv, for licking my fingers, ears and nose when I’m at least expecting it, for touching my face so softly while looking to my eyes that I could cry, for making me smile for no reason all the times. =’]

 

=']

 

 

  Ya, ini baru benar cinta mati gue.

The piercing

2005, aku decide untuk tindik kening. Masa tu aku tengah study lagi.

Aku teringat lagi sampai sekarang, sejak balik ke hostel dengan pierced eyebrow, aku rasa budak2 sebilik dengan aku dah pandang aku lain macam. Aku pun kurang ngam ngan diorang, sebab diorang tak cool. Cam setiap kali balik kelas atau lepas mandi dan masuk bilik, cam ada satu situasi pelik semua orang silence and berlagak konon bersahaja. Aku rasa diorang bajet aku ni budak liar.



Tapi tindik kening je kot, bukannya top star of 3gp.



Ada sekali masa aku tengah solat (dulu rajin dowh), terdengar diorang bisik2 sinis (kantoi x khusyuk), "Hek eleh, sah ke sembahyang pakai benda tu?"



(-__-")



Bukan susuk pun.


Nota tulis pakai kaki: Lama dah ye blog ni tak ada gambar.

Wanted

I need a friend. Someone yang layan konsert, live bands or djs and tak kan pernah claim, "We're already too old for that lah..."


 (-_-") Boring dowh korang. Damn, you guys got old before time.


And kawan yang tak on diet all year round, please? Aku sunyi dowh.

Biyutiful

Everything that's beautiful will eventually break our hearts.

He is beautiful, very. =\

You = My drugs. Probably.

I had never ever finished doctor's prescription when I'm sick, and for the 1st time I did.

Because you always remind me to do so.

New year, new ... ?

New haircut?

Boyfriend?

Car?

Job?

House?

Friends?

Laptop?

Handphone?

Scandal?

Possibilities are endless.

Tapi aku rasa paling best, new attitude. Attitude towards apa lak ye? Hmm…

Pernah kan rasa kosong dalam hati, like korang suka tengok muka someone berlainan jantina tapi dalam hati sikit pun tak rasa apa, like tengah dalam serius relationship tapi dalam hati tak rasa apa, like tengah in serius trouble tapi korang tak rasa takut pun, like memang dah lambat giler untuk meeting penting tapi dalam hati boleh calm giler tah datang dari mana. Like tak rasa apa sampai ke tahap korang tak kisah bila orang2 sakitkan hati korang over and over again, sebab tak rasa apa kan?

Rasa kosong sebab ada ‘someone’ yang korang suka be around je, look forward untuk jumpa tapi tak expect apa2 lebih2 pun sampai dah ready siap sedia sebab tahu akan tiba satu hari nanti, pada bila2 masa when we least expecting  that ‘someone’ suddenly disappear, just like that, just like the others before... And when they come back or suddenly reappear, benda tu makan diorang balik sebab tengok korang dah move on, live korang gempak giler, korang tak suffer eating disorder, korang bertambah cun/hensem, bertambah kaya, korang much2 more fun they wish they never left or at least they could keep up with you. But then all you can say, it’s okay I tak kisah pun, with biggest beam on your lips. Eat that.

Mungkin ok kot tak rasa apa, it makes you cool kot?

KOT.